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Just a reminder to those of you who still have this account listed as a "Friend"...

My new username is cognitive_gear

So do yourself a favor and remove this account from your Friends.

I didn't want to pay the 15$ fee.

So I just created a new account.cognitive_gear

So... add me. I don't think that this will be my CAA name. Still considering that one, since rorschach wasn't taken by a robot on CAA.

So today at work:

A good looking lady walked in. I thought "Wow, what a pretty lady."

Then she approached the counter, and I sensed something wrong. Once she got close enough, I discovered what it was.

A peach fuzz mustache. Ew.

To all you ladies out there that may not be in the know about this:

It doesn't matter what your skin tone is. Guys will see that peach fuzz mustache you have. Please do whatever it is that you have to do to get rid of it. It's similar to brushing your teeth: Do it and everything is fine; don't do it and it's kinda gross.

Maybe I'm just being shallow, but I think this really is true. xD

OMG.

I am so tired of japanophiles flipping out over my username. I can't tell you the number of IMs and whatnot I've gotten from japanophiles trying to connect with me on some bizzare spiritual quest for wapanese greatness. I am tired of it. I think it's time that I changed my username.

Now I just need to think of a new one....

So tonight I saw Harry Potter: whatever movie it was that just came out.

I went in blind. Haven't seen any previous movies, nor have I read the books. One of my friends wanted to go see it at the IMAX in 3-D, but had no one to go with. I was free for the evening, so I went to see what all the hullabaloo is about. On the way there, my friend gave me a breakdown of the plots and characters up to that point.

My initial thoughts:

Plot: The books must be extremely well written in order to pull off that plot and have sold so many copies. Or perhaps the weak plot is what makes it sell so well. I'm not sure which.

Characters: I found many of the characters to be entertaining and interesting, albeit some of them were quite stereotyped.

Overall story: I have one large complaint. This is the fact that this entire movie seemed to be worthless in any kind of greater arcing plot. It ends with everything back to exactly the way it was at the beginning of the movie.

Perhaps I missed things that happened. Having not seen the previous movies nor read the books could be why I found it to be lacking. Or perhaps it's just hyped. At least now I know that I can go without reading them for the rest of my life and not regret it later.

*quick edit*

I do realize that at the end of the movie people now believe that "He whom shall not be named" is back. However, I can't suppress the thought of "Gee, if they have a spell that allows you to search memories, why didn't they just use that to find out what happened?" I mean really. That's like me calling Disneyland and telling them that I planted a bomb and them deciding to do nothing about it.

Today I totally got to have fun. I finally started Psychonauts (even though I shouldn't, I have about 25 other games I need to finish...) and discovered how much fun that game is. For some reason, I couldn't shake the feeling that it was somehow connected to Invader Zim. Not quite sure why. Hopefully the answer will come to me with time.

I also read v. 10-13 of 20CB. This manga really just gets better with every volume. I can only hope that this trend continues.

Comic Con is next week. If anyone who reads this is going, please let me know so we can try to meet up. I will be attending on Saturday and Sunday.

( Long Therapeutic stuff )

Warning: Super flamboyant man ahead.







I had to share this with all of you.

I'm exhausted. But in such a way that I won't sleep tonight. Also, it's time I started trying to improve my self-image. I want to like myself. Now if I can just figure out how to go about such a thing... I suppose that since the last time I liked myself was fourish years ago when I had a girlfriend... That probably means that I get my self-worth evaluation from my success with women. I should start by eliminating that connection. I'm going to have to do some research on how to safely alter this type of behavior.

It's a starting point, at least.

So I decided to make an entry. Don't have anything in mind, I just thought I'd make one for the sake of making it.

The last few days have been relaxing. Two of my friends and I have been chilling together since Thursday. We haven't done much of anything but relax and spend some quality guy time together. Both fun and lame things have happened, everything from creating a black hole in SSBM to me getting anally violated by a vibrating GCN controller. So yeah, crazy times.

We are now watching Tommy Boy. It's been years since I've seen this movie. Hehe. Herbie Hancock.

One thing that makes me sad is my consistently horrible taste in women. HAHAHA. "What number did you call?" Oh, you know... 2,4,..... niner...: ROFL. Sorry. Tommy Boy. Anyways, Yeah. I consistently fall for the women that I know I have no chance with. makes me wonder if I'm some sort of emotional masochist. Ah, well. If the Lord grants me the gift, then i'll find someone. If not, I've been a virgin for 22 years, what's 60 more?

Comic Con in a couple of weeks. Pray that I don't go into massive debt. There will be much temptation to bust out the credit card, I'm sure.

Then, a few weeks after that it will be Bat's Day! I love Bat's day. It's a ton of fun, even if I'm wearing 2-3 layers of black in 95 degree weather. It's a good time, and the norms who just happen to come that day really enjoy it. I also love seeing and hearing the reactions of the norms.

AHAHAHHAHAAHHA. "Brothers don't shake hands... Brothers gotta HUG!"

Also, I haven't seen anyone else post about this anywhere. Did anyone else see the awesome trailer for the unannounced JJ Abrams film? It was the trailer that didn't have a title, but was insanely awesome. It started out in a going away party, and ended with the statue of liberty's head being thrown into the middle of the street. The whole trailer was fantastic. I hope that the film gets named and more trailers come out soon. It looks awesome. A giant monster movie filmed entirely from the perspective of handheld cameras? Hells yes.

Anyways, I might make some sort of sensical update later. Who knows.

L:KJDFL:JDSAF:JKLDFLJK:

SHAKEY CAM REBUILD OF EVA TRAILER. OMG. WANT NOW.

For all of you So. California people:

Bats Day in the Fun Park is the day that goths get together to go to disneyland! This happens every year. It is a fun event for all, regardless of attire worn that day.

Bats Day in the Fun Park will be on Sunday, August 19th this year.

For information regarding the event and pre-events, and also lots of great pictures, please visit:

I'm sorry for wronging you.

I don't know who all of you are, but I felt the need to post this. Some times I do idiotic things that hurt others unintentionally. If you are one of the many whom I have wronged, please leave a comment. Comments are screened in hopes of producing an environment which will cultivate good friendship building conversations. I want to sincerely apologize, but I need to know what i've done in order to do so.

Friendship is a two way street. Sometimes you have to meet halfway. This is me trying to meet you halfway.



Note: This was made due to me realizing how amazingly irritable I get when tired. I was very tired the last two days of AX, so I want to be sure that I did not do anything that hurt any of you, my friends. This is open to everyone and anyone that reads my journal, regardless of how long ago I wronged you.

"What does not kill you makes you stronger."

Or... so they say. I had a conversation regarding this recently, and I thought I'd share with my journal what I shared with them.

This statement, while often times true, is not a rule. There are exceptions.

To use a physical example:

On an icy day, a man slips and falls down some stairs and breaks his hip. Due to the nature of hip injuries, the man has a limp for the rest of his life.

For all intents and evolutionary purposes, he is weaker. Permanently. That single injury will continue to slow him down in life.

However, he now serves as an example to others. Because they hear his story and see how it has affected him, those that come after him will be more careful around the steps on icy days. The man in no way benefits from his own injury. It has weakened and hurt him for the rest of his life. However, others are benefiting from his pain.

So no cosplay for me this year. On top of not being able to figure out how to create or where to buy skull chains, one of the things I ordered online for the costume has been delayed for a week. (It was supposed to show up today) Obviously, I canceled the order.

Today I went to the El Capitan theater with some friends. The El Capitan was currently playing Pirates 3, so that is what we saw. But really, that is inconsequential background to this entry.

Two of my friends are dating, and will soon be engaged. I noticed something about them today. They love each other. They really, truly do and it shows. They are each other's first choice, with everything and everyone being a distant second. You can see it in their eyes, in the way they act, in the way they touch and in the way they talk.

They are the only couple I've ever met like this. Every relationship I've seen up until now has been.... problematic. They weren't each other's first choices, or one didn't love the other, or they rushed into things due to the warm fuzzies.

But my friends gave me hope. That maybe, just maybe, something in this world occasionally goes the right way.

AX is 10 days away, and I'm still missing vital pieces of my costume. I need to freaking find some chains with skulls. Or figure out how to make them. or something. I need good claws. And teeth. And feathers. And rings and bracelets. I'm running out of time, and I'm going to be rather frustrated with myself if I can't get this costume done.

I've had some thoughts recently, and I wanted to record them here.

With increasing frequency I have been thinking to myself "*Chuckle* I'm a bad man." This mostly comes after some thought I have. I think some of these thoughts might disturb some people, which is what makes me think that I am a bad man. However, the fact that I think these things and then deny them proves that I am not a bad man. Weather a man is good or bad depends on his actions, not his free flowing thoughts, correct?

I am starting to think that I am suffering from depression. Not the emotion, but the psychological problem. However, I have neither the money nor the means to see someone who could actually diagnose me, and beyond that I have even less means to get a prescription. If any of you have dealt with Depression or know someone who does, any tips on how to correct this problem would be appreciated. I think that my often too strong sense of duty might make it so that I'd actually try to get out of this.

EWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEW

EW

Today at work this group of Jr. High aged girls came in. AND THEY LOOKED AT ME WITH LUST IN THEIR EYES AND GIGGLED. Small children. Little girls that are someone's daughter. Stared at me with lust. Ew.

I found this to be a very sad occurrence. I hate how this world just seems to push everyone into thinking simultaneously that a relationship isn't worthwhile without sex,, and that sex doesn't have any real meaning other than it feeling good. I swear, this world is retarded. In my (hopefully) future relationship(s), I want more than this world has to offer me. I want something meaningful that will only become more beautiful with age, not something that I will come to resent as time goes on.

Oh well. This is probably why I haven't had a date in roughly 4 years. I'm probably asking for too much. xD